hello darling.

My secret blog, that i have been neglecting.

i havent been up to a lot. AManda just left, and let me tell you. i want to just blow my head off, i dont know why i put up with her shit, and im not taking it anymore. ive pretty much decided that i am not even going to be an effort to be here friend.

as a matter of fact, i dont plan on being friends with anyone anymore. Poeple are just so so so fucking good at pushing me to a point.  I want to shoot everyone at my house, i cant stand to be there, i just want to hang out at my moms the whole day. and then dread the fact that im going to have to go home and listen to Allen and Robi fight, they fight over the stupidest things, and they dont understand why its annoying to me. Allen was talking shit on me the other day to Robi, and i heard him, and it was supposed to hurt me, usually if i catch someone talking shit on me, i break....but this time i just rolled my eyes and went to my room, and let all my respect for allen go down the drain. i cant stand him,

i cant stand Robi's [pregnancy] exuses.

i hate it so fucking much.

I went to white water yesterday, and i am so sunburned that it hurts like a bitch. i havnet been exposed to sunlight like that in years, i enjoy being the white girl that i am.

ive been irritated so much lately. My doctor put me on some new meds, called abilify. they are meant for schitzophrenia... and believe me im not a schitzo. They make me feel odd...they are supposed to help me with my mood swings and irritation level. [oh man, im getting irritating over the smallest of things] but they are just making me zombie-fied, i dont even want to fight, so i guess its working,

[just suck the energy out of her, she'll be alright]

oh well. i'll be going now.

peace. -Randie

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